Assalamualaikum my blog, friends, families and readers… rindu gilerr…
Fuhhh… Alhamdulillah… exam dah abis for this semester, just hope for the best… Tawakkal to Allah. Mmg tough!!… no wonder ramai yg amik sekerat jln, sespecially for those who are with other commitments. I'm not hoping too much to score straight A, kalau pass all the papers pun good enough for me to continue applying scholarship for the next sem. Kalau tak terpaksa la mintak Abaji sponsor balik mcm mula2 dulu… bukan banyak sgt pun, tp kalau boleh, taknak menyusahkan hubby terchentaa… bleh la yg extra2 tu dia wat blanje aku mende lain pulak… kehhkehh…. *ayat tak sedor diri*
Obviously aku sgt cuak… x confident menjwb soalan… mcm la sem2 lepas tu confident… tu la sendri mau ingat la kan… sapa suh study last minute??!!... Pastu merapu la jwb soalan… tu lom kira membuat silly mistakes lagi tu… Ya Allah…. Sekali lagi aku memohon pertolonganMu… mcm yg berkali-kali mintak sebelum ni… hhmmm… time2 mcm ni baru la nak terasa malu ngan tuhan… sbb rasa mcm doa tak setimpal ngan usaha… :(
Mmg sem baru ni rasa mcm sengal and slow sgt kepala otak ni… buat assignments slow, nak paham ape yg aku baca slow, nak menghafal slow… nak practice technical questions laaaggii la slow!! Sbb Mak dah takde ke?... isykk.. aku ni cari ilmu kerana Mak ke.. kerana Allah?! Astaghfirullah… Yg lajunye mengularr… tv3 teramat laju lak kat sini, giler aku back to back tgk SpaQ lah, Matahari lah, gossip2 Melodi lah, cerita antu seram yg tah ape2 tah, yg mmg jarang2 nk tgk time kat M'sia… bleh tersangkut gile2 pulak kat sini… bulletin utama akak layan jugakkk… tu blom masuk yg cerita2 drama movie dlm you tube sama ade yg sengaja di cari atau ter 'eksiden' jumpa… campur lak OIAM and AF season2 yg lepas tu pun aku khatamkan gak dlm senyap2. And tak kurang gak layan FB yg sedar2 je dah "eh… dah berjam-jam aku layan gambar kawan2 dlm FB ni?!!.. patut la penat, baring jap ahh… (a.k.a tido yg lama….)"… Abis dah waktu siang, malam baru la terhegeh2 nak bukak buku…. Time tgh bersemangat nak mentelaah, time tu la my Precious Princess datang dgn "Mommy… I want u!!" And as usual, she made me melted there and then after the whole day I'd been neglected her. And the days went on and on and on until submission date… then exam date…
The silence that I had was killing my time and my heart silently… It's not a golden silence as I wanted it to be. And it's not anyone's fault except me. Dan sekarang baru lah menyesal… rasa sgt bersalah ngan Hanna… ngan Nenet… ngan Abaji (sbb slalu stay up mlm sampai ke subuh dgn alasan "my brain works better at night"…) and terutama skali dengan Allah… :(
Friends… don't be like me…
"By the declining day, Lo! man is a state of loss, Save those who believe and do good works, and exhort one another to truth and exhort one another to endurance."
(Al-Quran: Al-Asr)
7 comments:
'berat'nya...mmg all out nih..btw, amik exam kat mana? cyber gak ker or ada station kat NY?...(ntah betul ke term yg aku guna ni..)
ohh.. sy amat memahami situsimu, wahai kakak 'iparku! krn sy jua begitu!! i think its coz we feel tht we hav a lot of time on our hands, tht we delay the work tht actually can't be delayed!!! we like to satisfy our yearnings and cravings first, with the hope tht we could concentrate on our work better later on.. ye lar, kalu dah 'work' tu kan se-synonym ngn 'boooringg'? at the end of the day.. time slips on by.. and you've wasted it! Ni aerin ada lg assignmts nk kena wat, tp still gak tgk2 blog org!! haaaiisssshhhhh...!!!
nas - exam kat Consulate General of Malaysia, NY. Sesape amik kat luar m'sia exam sitting kat M'sian embassy kat negara masing2. S'pore pun sama rasanya.
mak yayin - haipp2... studeyyy!! studeyy!! (baca ngan gaya abah marah jegilkan mata... hahaha...).
Ye la mak yayin, sem ni subjectnye agak voringgg... good luck to u bebehh!!
oh, terasa sgt menyesal skrg sbb awal dulu tak nak amik CIFP tu...
sy dah balik HR, survey kerja dept lain...mmg JPIT nak org. tp sy sgt sedar, kail cuma pjg sejengkal..hahaha
weh apasal tetiba aku jadi nurul najihah ni????
-namaku nasibah-
nurul najihah?!!... hahha nas rupanya... so camna? banyak dept 'sesuai' yg available tak??... fuhh... can't imagine my time is coming soon... urgghhh... tak bestnyerr... btw, tuan kat s'pore mmg 2 thn je ke?
mungkin terpaksa 'jilat ludah sendiri'...insyaAllah,itupun kalau ada rezeki. tp kalau terpaksa balik jit....hm, tak lama kot...ntahlah. yg penting skrg, tuan nanti offshore (tgh laut), bulan 8. sy kena adjust..takleh ler kerja mcm dulu. anak pun dah sekolah.
sy mintak tlg HR kalau ada dept yg tak perlukan sy kerja mengarut tak tentu masa..
harapnyer...dia boleh masuk project team lagi lps ni...amiin.
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