Show that we care...

Tak habis2 Zionis laknatullah nak cari pasal!!!... Memang itu telah termaktub dalam Al-Quran. Hanya dengan kuasa Allah saja yg dapat menghapuskan mereka2 itu. Tapi itu tidak bermakna kita sebagai hamba-Nya yg mengaku beriman hanya duduk tengok membisu. The least we can do is... ambil tahu apa yang terjadi, bagi tahu kepada sesiapa yang mungkin tak tahu... dan doakan mereka yg teraniaya dengan kezaliman melampau puak2 nih... buat solat hajat... qunut nazilah... buat kecaman.... teruskan boycott!!! alamak, hari tu tak perasan makan kurma sedap from Israel!! cisss!!!..hina!!.

I extend this invitation to myself, my friends and my family and whoever read this... let's do whatever we can with our sincere hearts... although it may not stop the cruelty of the Zionist, let's show to Allah that we care, and Allah will definitely care for us !!

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Articulative Enough, Am I ?!

Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... 1000x.... Infinity....

I got my result, the best ever CIFP result I've gotten so far... with FLYING COLORS i might say... almost straight A's (ya.. almost... ade satu je B kali ni). Mcm tak caya... sbb rasa mcm susah sgt hari tu, w/pun blh jawab... tp itu lah dia. Berkat doa orang2 tersayang di sini mahu pun di Malaysia, tunjuk ajar Abaji yg tak pernah komplen akan ke'lemau'an dan kesengalan ku ini, usaha yg last minute kebanyakannye... dan tawakal. Syukur yang tidak terhingga. Tersangat amat merasa kerdil dan hina dina aku ini... tapi Allah kurnia dan terus kurniakan, beri dan terus memberi ape yg aku mintak. Semoga kurniaan dan pemberian ini berserta dgn rahmat dan redhaNya... janganlah Dia memberi dengan murkaNya kerana aku selalu alpa... leka... dan berdosa... Moga syukurku pendekatkan lagi aku padaNya.

But the journey is still long way to go. Straight A's belum boleh menjamin apa2!! Apa gunanya kalau hanya pandai menjawab soalan di atas kertas. But the real challenge is in my everyday life, when people surrounding ask me ... initiating, participating, answering, clarifying, influencing... in conversation... in dialog... in debate... not only Islamic Finance subject per se, but Islam as a whole!!.. Hhmm... banyak gak rakan2 non-Muslim kat sini tanya... aku jawab... aku clarified... tp dlm hati aku tak puas hati ngan jawapan aku. Rasa mcm tak lengkap, tak complete... tak lancar... dan paling tak best aku rasa aku tak dapat nak menyampaikan dan memahamkan diorang bahawa Islam itu cantik dan sempurna seperti mana yang aku faham. I AM NOT ARTICULATIVE ENOUGH!!!! Obviously sifat Tabligh dlm diri memang terasa jauh sekali. Sifat Nabi yang satu ini memang bukan senang nak aquire skillnye. Apatah lagi dengan cetek ilmu dan amal mcm aku ni. But no... as at now aku tak berupaya /tak sanggup nak join 'orang2 Tabligh' yg bermacam2 group kat luar sana tu.

Ape2 hal pun aku kena dakwahkan hati dan diri sentiasa. I'm getting into CIFP part II (building the skill after building the knowledge in Part I). As I go along, I pray to Allah to give me strength and consistency in striving to be the better me. So that I can articulately conveying the beauty of Islam at least to my circle of influences, if not to the world.

So Typical... But yet so SPECIAL :)

I received this from my little one for Mommy's Day. Her hand-made flower from recycle stuff that she made during playgroup project. Nampak mcm biasa2 aja, tp aku yg menerimanya rasa penuh bermakna... so special especially when she gave it to me whole-heartedly with cheers and excitement on her face saying "Mommy... I have a surprise for u... Taddaaa... and it's your favorite color..." 

Pergghh... my heart melted again! Last year she gave me her self-made Mother's Day card, and now the flower... :D ... Isn't it very rewarding to be a mother?... I'm sure every mother out there rasa seronok bila dpt something drp anaknye. Tindak tanduk Hanna selalu mengingatkan ape yg aku buat pada Mak. Dan slalu mengingatkan ape yg Mak buat pada aku. So segala benda baik yg Mak dah buat pada aku, aku akan cuba buat pada Hanna dgn sebaik mungkin. Agaknye Mak aku dulu rasa mcm ni la bila aku bagi ape2 yg ntahapahapa tu... Tp aku dulu lebih banyak meminta daripada memberi...  Ohh... how I wish I could give more and more masa dia ade dulu... huhuhuuu.... menyesal... menyesal :(

And now, Al-Fatihah (and doa) is the best and the only gift I can give to her.... Makk... saya rindu kat Makk... nangis lagii... cengeng btul la aku semenjak Mak dah takde ni... :(

Ya... anak adalah harta yg paling bermakna Allah turunkan kepada manusia.... Harta yg bukan percuma... bayarannya ialah tanggungjawab yg dipakejkan sekali dengan harta itu kepada penerimanya. Tanggungjawab utk menjadikan anak itu memilih utk turut pada agamanya... bayaran yg amat mahal semahal syurga dan neraka... Ya Allah... terbayarkah aku??!

To me, Mother's Day is more than just people showing their love and appreciation to the mother, but most importantly as reminder for me to muhasabah diri... reflecting my duties and responsiblities towards my child and the God.... 

"Siapa lah ibu tanpa si anak... dan siapalah ibu dan anak tanpa Allah"

The SILENCE that kills!

Assalamualaikum my blog, friends, families and readers… rindu gilerr…

Fuhhh… Alhamdulillah… exam dah abis for this semester, just hope for the best… Tawakkal to Allah. Mmg tough!!… no wonder ramai yg amik sekerat jln, sespecially for those who are with other commitments. I'm not hoping too much to score straight A, kalau pass all the papers pun good enough for me to continue applying scholarship for the next sem. Kalau tak terpaksa la mintak Abaji sponsor balik mcm mula2 dulu… bukan banyak sgt pun, tp kalau boleh, taknak menyusahkan hubby terchentaa… bleh la yg extra2 tu dia wat blanje aku mende lain pulak… kehhkehh…. *ayat tak sedor diri*

Obviously aku sgt cuak… x confident menjwb soalan… mcm la sem2 lepas tu confident… tu la sendri mau ingat la kan… sapa suh study last minute??!!... Pastu merapu la jwb soalan… tu lom kira membuat silly mistakes lagi tu… Ya Allah…. Sekali lagi aku memohon pertolonganMu… mcm yg berkali-kali mintak sebelum ni… hhmmm… time2 mcm ni baru la nak terasa malu ngan tuhan… sbb rasa mcm doa tak setimpal ngan usaha… :(

Mmg sem baru ni rasa mcm sengal and slow sgt kepala otak ni… buat assignments slow, nak paham ape yg aku baca slow, nak menghafal slow… nak practice technical questions laaaggii la slow!! Sbb Mak dah takde ke?... isykk.. aku ni cari ilmu kerana Mak ke.. kerana Allah?! Astaghfirullah… Yg lajunye mengularr… tv3 teramat laju lak kat sini, giler aku back to back tgk SpaQ lah, Matahari lah, gossip2 Melodi lah, cerita antu seram yg tah ape2 tah, yg mmg jarang2 nk tgk time kat M'sia… bleh tersangkut gile2 pulak kat sini… bulletin utama akak layan jugakkk… tu blom masuk yg cerita2 drama movie dlm you tube sama ade yg sengaja di cari atau ter 'eksiden' jumpa… campur lak OIAM and AF season2 yg lepas tu pun aku khatamkan gak dlm senyap2. And tak kurang gak layan FB yg sedar2 je dah "eh… dah berjam-jam aku layan gambar kawan2 dlm FB ni?!!.. patut la penat, baring jap ahh… (a.k.a tido yg lama….)"… Abis dah waktu siang, malam baru la terhegeh2 nak bukak buku…. Time tgh bersemangat nak mentelaah, time tu la my Precious Princess datang dgn "Mommy… I want u!!" And as usual, she made me melted there and then after the whole day I'd been neglected her. And the days went on and on and on until submission date… then exam date…

The silence that I had was killing my time and my heart silently… It's not a golden silence as I wanted it to be. And it's not anyone's fault except me. Dan sekarang baru lah menyesal… rasa sgt bersalah ngan Hanna… ngan Nenet… ngan Abaji (sbb slalu stay up mlm sampai ke subuh dgn alasan "my brain works better at night"…) and terutama skali dengan Allah… :(

Friends… don't be like me…

"By the declining day, Lo! man is a state of loss, Save those who believe and do good works, and exhort one another to truth and exhort one another to endurance."

(Al-Quran: Al-Asr)

Rezeki...

Alhamdulillah.... rezeki. Although it's only partial scholarship for only one semester, ini merupakan berita yg sangat gembira for me and Abaji. Yes, Abaji got it too... :). No... it's not from our employer... it's from our school.

I was overjoyed... bukak skype terus speed dial nombor emak.... but no one answered. Daaa.. lupa daaa... mak aku kan dah takde. Terkedu kejap... seblum ni kalau ade apa2 berita baik, mak la orang yg pertama tau dulu.. I'm sooo used to it, but now I hv to get use to the change, I guess...

Apa2 pun, syukur sangat2. Di saat aku rasa susah nak berguru di depan screen computer, tak nampak muka lecturer, hari ni tanya... guna email... esok baru dpt jawapan, kalau lecturer tak bz. And subject makin lama makin susah, makin mencabar... very critical... very analytical... ye...mcm amik Master of Finance lagaknye... uhhh... and I'm still crawling in understanding the basics. But this letter motivates me...

Yes, Allah is talking to me... jangan leka dgn nikmat dunia... jangan give up... and with this extra allocation I have, boleh la aku menambah lagi saham akhirat. Oh, GAZA... my heart goes with u....aku baru lepas nangis tgk gambar skolah kena bomb hari tu... :(

Semoga amalku, ibadatku diterima Allah dan dijauhkan hatiku dari sifat mazmumah... Aminn...

Help GAZA, please...

http://www.thecommentfactory.com/gaza-is-a-new-genocide-an-israeli-and-granddaughter-of-holocaust-survivors-explains-how-she-fought-the-lies/

I'm doing this in the cause of ALLAH. I believe in my effort of writing and talking about this matter, would somehow trigger the intuation and willingness of the readers of wanting to know more... and once you really know what happen, and the truth is revealed to you... I hope you will show your care and sincerely want to help them in whatever way you can... may it be in form of monetary support, efforts in desseminating information and educating others, boycotting Israelist products or at least with prayers in your heart... I believe we could help to STOP THE CRIMES OF THE ZIONIST TO THE PALESTINIANS... Insyaallah.

Janganlah sikap ketidakpedulian kita memakan diri sendiri... Ingatlah... Allah sebenarnya sedang menguji kita...

Ayat-ayat Cinta...

New semester has begun... while Hanna is constantly developing her skills in pre-K, I have 2 more subjects to complete my Part 1... aiyarkss... baru part 1 dah tercungap-cungap... This means from now on I'm back again with activities of reading, digesting, brainstorming, researching, thinking, filtering and completing my assignments and project papers before the exam at the end of the year. Namun, taufan kemalasan masih melanda tanpa reda.... Oleh itu mari kita tengok wayang!!!... heheheh...

Through Saifulislam.com I found my favorite film of the year!!.. filem sepanjang zaman... an Indonesian film "AYAT AYAT CINTA" ohh.. sungguh syahdu... dah ler tgh PMS nihh... sebak... sayu... pilu... dan paling penting sungguh menginsafkan!!! Recomended to everyone!!..

Credit to the original writer of the novel... Habiburrahman El Shirazy, yang mana diantara lain, telah meletakkan konsep poligami dari kacamata Islam dalam konteks yg betul. Syabas!!

And Miracle Happened...

ALHAMDULILLAH...

HE tested me... HE loves me... (cilok Kak Gee's recent entry title in her blog ;))

I passed my exam (and Abaji too...), and I cried in gratefulness.... I'm a bit emo now...
Emakk... kalau dulu, berhadapan ngan time2 mcm ni mesti saya dah peluk mak... ni nak peluk Abaji, dia gi keja... nak peluk Hanna, dia skolah... tak kan nak peluk Nenet lak kot?.. isykk.. takmoh lah...

He tested us... in multiple ways... but never leaves us alone without strength to go through it. HE'S THE MOST MERCIFUL, THE MOST COMPASIONATE...

And I have to learn to thank HIM more and more... have to improve my solat, have to learn Al-Quran more... I found it easier to understand Al-Quran thru CIFP... have to strive for the better tomorrow so I can give more and expect nothing but HIS blessings...

Tawhid Concept in Child - It's a FITRAH :)

Yes... I'm worry too much... I'm worry that I didn't put enough effort to teach my child the concept of tawhid... every time I explained to Hanna, dia buat 'donno' jer. No reaction or anything... Tapi bila aku cakap pasal hantu sket... tau pulak takut minah ni...

Until I came across this article "ANTARA TUHAN DAN HANTU" during my blog hopping recently... I don't think I have to worry too much anymore. Indeed... I feel confident now with my explanations and techniques, and will continue to teach and nurture my child at the best of my ability.

Thanks to Kak Zura for her frequently forwarded emails (dgn topic yg pelbagai sampai tak kuasa aku nak baca...), which eventually lead me to Saifulislam.com. It's another cool blog about Islam... my reading recommendation to everyone.